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How I lost 160 Pounds in a Little Over a Year and a Half

Yes, folks, it can be done, I am living proof.  You can lose weight over 40.  Hell, you can lose weight at any age. I have been an overweight person my whole life.  Like, for real.  I was a fat kid, a fat teen and a fat adult.  At my largest I was 300 pounds, a size 28 and a 5 x in tops.  I was a big girl, for sure… If you are overweight, you probably can feel my pain. I was worried about all kinds of things—will I be able to fit in that booth at the restaurant, will I be able to get a seat belt extender for the plane, the list goes on…. It was not only annoying, but downright embarrassing.  I remember going into the…
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Self Sabotage and American Ninja Warrior

Holy cow!  Another week down and another week closer to getting that American Ninja Warrior application in…. I have to say that I am humming with excitement and all consuming terror at the thought of even turning in my application.  It’s likely nothing will come of it, but……what if something does? For me, this is almost as big as losing weight.  It feels like a goal that is totally outside my realm of achieve and I am having a hard time even picturing myself doing something so crazy. I felt the same way that day I gave my money to be in a work place competition to win money.  I was totally panic-stricken.  The second I handed over my mulah, I wanted to eat my face off. Self Sabotage Oh…
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How To Mitigate the Holiday 15

Isn’t it funny how media switches from diet advice to “eat all things” during the Holidays?  I find it quite ironic how there is no happy medium between these things; you should be starving yourself with celery during the summertime and then gain at least 15 pounds during the holidays or you aren’t doing it up right. I have been on that rollercoaster for years, and to be completely transparent, still have a tendency to continue on that wild ride.  The temptations abound and it is really hard to say no. Holy hell, everyone and their mother posted stuff on National Cookie Day a couple of days ago, and I couldn’t stop salivating.  Pavlov’s dog has nothing on me…. So what do you do during this time of year?  Go…
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Jumping into “American Ninja Warrior”

‘Merica….Ninja Warrior, That Is. Yes, its that time of year where American Ninja Warrior starts to search for the most talented people out there to go to Mt Midoriyama.  Well, search no further.  I am here, friends. I love the thought of going through a whole course and being such a total boss that when Kristine Leahy asks me how I did it, I am going to say, “it was really no biggie, Kristine.” If age and gas were the defining factor, I would win hands down, no question about it. Just because I am pushing 50 and have been morbidly obese for 75% of my life doesn’t mean I can’t do tryouts. I mean, man, I got a shelf life here. I could need CPR and a whole lot…
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Why Women Loathe Themselves

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I was asking my husband what subject I should write about for my blog.  His answer took me by surprise.  “Write about why women hate themselves and men don’t.”  “We don’t hate ourselves,” I said, my voice an octave higher.  “See, you even get defensive over it.  You women hate yourselves.  You will never catch a man getting all emotional with a few lines on his face or a beer gut. We just don’t think like that.”   He may be right.  It might be my imagination, but I think that women are targeted more through marketing and the media to look, act and feel a certain way.  I mean, geez, just look at TV ads—most are targeted to us about our hair, face, skin and weight.  Men?  Well, they…
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I stopped binge eating…or did I?

You probably think that since I have lost 160+ pounds that I have the food thing figured out, right? I mean, how can you lose that much weight without exercising your face off and eating all organic, whole foods you can get from your own back yard? In fact, when I go places with friends, they offer me cupcakes (OMG I absolutely LOVE cake) and say “well, since your thin now, you can eat that” or my personal favorite, “don’t be so militant, you only live once!”. WRONG! Now, I am not saying I don’t eat those things every now and then, but it’s pretty rare. I am 6 years out from losing this weight, and I am still a zealot when it comes to tracking my food and logging…
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Let’s Talk about Goals

 What do American Ninja Warrior, Figure Competing, Powerlifting and marathon running all have in common? They are and have been my goals after losing my weight. These goals are pretty lofty, especially for an overweight, highly non-athletic, clumsy girl that had a hard time even walking to the cafeteria, and that is WITH motivation! I knew when I was losing my weight I would have a hell of a time keeping it off. I know in my own mind –  bigger is better, more is better – and that includes food, too. I had to be methodical in my weight loss when doing this contest. I mentioned previously that I started walking, which, by the way, for a large person hurts like hell. I knew, though, that I needed some…
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Falling Down Is Inevitable. Getting up is Optional.

Sometimes the things that you think are the worst things to happen to you are actually blessings in disguise. This is what happened to me in late 2009. I was doing last minute Christmas shopping with a friend. I had been losing weight and was down to about 255 from 300 lbs, and I was feeling better than I had in years. We were leaving, and I fell off the curb. Four women rushed to me, and before I could mumble an embarrassed “I’m ok”, one of the women started to point and laugh, “look at that big fat pig on the ground!” The others chimed in, and they were laughing and pointing at me generic antabuse australia. They started saying things too, and my friend whisked me out of…
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Manifesto of a Fat Person

Well, I know a thing or two about being fat. I was 300lbs for, I don’t know, too long to count. This manifesto is a manifesto that is going to change the way we not only view fat people (I know, not politically correct verbiage, but I am pretty politically incorrect, so its ok), but how we help them to discover their awesome, badass-selves. Rule number one: Don’t stare, don’t make fun of, and don’t ostracize the fat person. It isn’t fun to be fat, and being singled out sucks. It’s almost as if fat people are viewed as someone with leprosy. Let me tell you, if a fat person bumps in to you, you can’t “catch” their fatness. I promise. Rule number two: Don’t automatically think fat people are…
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